Friday, January 13, 2006

I am OK...

I just read again what I wrote last night, and realise the impression I gave of my situation might have been a bit too dark. So, before sending the link of this blog to my mum, I'll need to list some positive points.

I do have money. Don't send more. I actually just got a nice grant to get me through this final year. What I meant was the next grant I'm likely to get is for post-doctoral work (if I decide to go that way in my career), at least I wouldn't give myself anything more for the PhD. The point of this was to say that the work will actually have to finish this year, and listing and overdramatising the facts is my way of self-motivation. All deadlines need to be enforced with threats of physical consequences.

In case my supervisor finds out about this blog, I also need to say that I might have exaggerated the statement about how little I have written. While it's true that I have very little text, there's a lot of raw material and experimental results as a basis. I have been working...

OK, no more apologies or explanations. If you misunderstand something or get the wrong picture of what's going on, I will regard it as a feature of this process, not a fault. (hmm, I think it's time to set some rules for this blog...)

4 comments:

mitluana said...

I've already (almost) given up the thoughts of what impression I may give or what other people think about me after reading my posts...

There's no other way to do it, really, otherwise you become either too self-conscious and censor too much, or you end up with explanations, excuses and finding justification for what you've just written. Then you wonder why and if/when someone understands it this or that way, you must add that it's definitely not the way you meant it. And then you start to worry what other alternatives you may have missed and then you can't write anything without wondering if it makes sense and if you have friends left after a month of blogging.

So my advice (I'm good at giving them, you know...) is: go with the flow and write. Anything. Anytime.

Looking forward to your thoughts.

ps. greetings to Mom! :)

TH said...

Cheers. And if people don't understand what I mean, it's obviously their fault anyway. :0)

mitluana said...

Yep, definitely! :)

Anonymous said...

This "I am OK" addition was reassuring. I can unpack now...
Mum